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on dreams and saying goodbye to an old love

2006-08-21T08:41:00.000-07:00

Spell:
Bless this emerald that I wear, Venus, spirit of love, hear my cry. Let my tears dry by and by. Let my feelings for whom I love, disappear on the wings of a white dove. The song is over the dance is done, the door is closed. Let true love come back into my life. End the pain inside of me, end the strife. So more it be.

Dreams:
Did this spell and dreamt all night of whom I love. Not the effect I wanted. But maybe what the spell is doing is trying to help me resolve deep within my dreams, the pain inside.

Beliefs:
Dreams are keys to our deepest feelings. Our dreams are always “honest” with us. Witches record their dreams(as I have done here) and try to look at them. I also give myself “assignments” based upon these dreams. For example, if I dream that I am reading a certain book; I will read a chapter the next day from that book. If I dream that I am taking a trip somewhere, I will go on the internet and “look at that place” of if it is feasible, take a trip to that place. If I dream of my child, I will then take time the next day to really spend time with my child. By recording my dreams I begin to see patterns in my dreams. By doing the follow thru many times I will “see” something that I didn’t see. Or I will begin to resolve feelings that I otherwise wouldn’t.

Daily:
1) Encounter with person I love. Or feel “something for”. Difficult, painful encounter…no seeming easy resolution. A profound feeling of anger and frustration at the situation.
2) A feeling that it is time to let love back into my life. That I am getting ready or close to ready.
3) I will do another spell to say good-bye.

Llamas spell...career spell

2006-07-31T11:32:00.000-07:00

Dreams: I am getting ready to go out. I am “trying” to find the “right” make-up…I can’t seem to find what I need. I look thru my purse for make-up, I look at my make-up counter. I ask my kiddo where X make-up is. I am getting “all dressed up”, and I feel nervous, scared. I think to myself as I look in the mirror, that I am “tired of dating”(but I don’t currently date). I am tired of “all of it”. I think of the finale to the show “Sex in the City”, where Carrie says, “I am looking to find love. Love where we can’t live without each other. Love where both of us “need” each other. “ I am getting ready to go to “yet another event”. I look in the mirror and think to myself…I like what I see overall. I am at my “right” weight size and even though I have a few wrinkles, they give me character. I am at peace with what I look like. But then I think it doesn’t really “matter” what I look like-love isn’t like that.

Llamas spell:
You sow what you reap, be careful for the seeds that you sow. Burn away what you have reaped…that you no longer wish for. (Take a corn husk, right down what you no longer wish for in your life…and burn it away).

Plant a seed of some sort. On a “plant” that is symbolic of what you wish for.

Spell:
Been working a spell on success. I am “undertaking” three undertakings. It maybe too many undertakings. But…I am doing a spell for success in all three.

Daily Events:
1) Jim is generally “gone” for days now. But he was here last night.
2) Went to a Llamas celebration…it was a ‘good thing”…
3) Set up interview for producing job internship. Have mixed emotions about it.

answer to happines question

2006-07-31T11:22:00.000-07:00

Happiness is in my opinion a skill-almost a discipline. An internal discipline of the mind and the mind-set. There are two books that have helped me. One is “Create Your Own Happiness” by Nancy Ashley-a Seth book. Essentially, this book describes the mental constructs (beliefs) for mental “Habits of Happiness”. They key to the Seth books and indeed to my “own” book from many years ago are that you create your own reality. That is a very hard “thing” to accept. Yet it is “very empowering as well”. When I am unhappy or sad (like in this last blog), I still say to myself, “Some part of my mind created this reality” for some reason. Why? This situation is here to teach me something…

Relatedly, I find the most crucial thing I can do is “appreciate” my problems. For example, “my break-up” that I have written about here. I “thank” the universe for my break-up. And “suddenly” I will see how it is changing me. I see that I am spending my time differently, meeting new friends, taking on different challenges then I would if I had not “broken up”. I have had in the past and will “restart” again on Llamas, an “abundance diary”. Everyday, I must write down “five” things that I am grateful for. And they have to be “new” things. This is not easy to do when you are unhappy or sad. For example, yesterday, I was thankful for: 1) a new rosebud on one of my rosebushes 2) a really good glass of sun tea that I made 3) a new business opportunity 4) a new piece of computer equipment that I finally got to work within my system 5) The “almost” finding of my signature perfume-this has taken me years to do and I am “finally” close. That to me, means that I am “finally” finding myself. I am finally “coming into myself” in ways that I never thought I would be before, and this is related to “this recent break-up” in my life. This idea is from a book entitled, “Simple Abundance”, and I am going to be utilizing the “Simple Abundance Journal of Gratitude”. Simple Abundance is a wonderful book to read when feeling sad and unhappy, it is a group of daily meditations that essentially “teach a mind set” of how to appreciate life.

Another one is Feeling Good-an introduction to cognitive therapy. Essentially, this book written by an innovative pyschologist “talks” about…change your mind set when you are unhappy. Looking at your thought processes. For example, one reason for depression is “all or nothing thinking”. When you find yourself saying, “It is always like this…when you are unhappy about a situation”. Truthfully, when you THINK about it…nothing is ALWAYS like that. Things are in a constant state of change or flux. But that feeling that you “have been here before” and will ‘be here again” is what I call a “redo”. A redo is when you have a group of mindsets that consistently “recreate” in your life a certain situation. Like someone who can never “seemingly” find love. They seem to pick the “same’ angry partner over and over and over again.

When you are unhappy, there is a message of some sort to “fix” something. Find out what you need to fix. What you need to change.

Spells work as well…one of my favorite is by Raymond Buckland:
You need a gold candle, an orange candle, two red candles, and a candle to represent yourself.

Light the candle that represents yourself and say: I am here. My spirit is steadfast and happiness for me is earned and richly deserved.

Light the gold and orange candle and say: The spirit of happiness is attracted to me-as a moth is attracted to this very flame. The attraction is so great that it cannot be resisted. It draws and pulls.

Light the red candles and say: Here is the luck and happiness that I truly deserve. I have worked hard for it. It is coming towards me…it is advancing towards me…(then move the candles towards you).

See in your mind’s eye obtaining everything that you truly wish for in regards to being happy then say:
A star dawns beauteous in my gloomy night,
A star that sheds sweet comfort with its light,
Promising me new life and joy-
Oh, do not lie!

Like as the ocean to the moon swells free,
So mounts my soul, daring and glad to thee-
To thee, and to thy light of joy,-
Oh, do not lie!

See the happiness building and what circumstances need to come to you for you to be happy…repeat the above

Then see finally, you having what you truly wish for…again..and say it again. Do this for a week of successive nights.

to see the forest for the tress

2006-07-05T14:10:00.000-07:00

Dreams: I am in a hotel room in NY. I am trying to get my work done. There is so much turmoil around me, so much to do. And yet there is so much turmoil inside of me, one is reflective of the other. There is a baby crying in the background. I remember that when I was upset, my baby was also upset. It is another symbol of being upset. The turmoil within and the turmoil without. I must settle things deeply within myself. I must see the underlying purpose…and try to find the underlying reason for the “bad stuff that is happening to me”. I must also “bless” the situation. That is the true way to resolve something. To say “thank you”, this creates a peace about it. But I find that I cannot. I am to angry to bless the situation, but I know deep inside that I need too.

Spell:
Goddess guide me thru my dreams, heal the sadness in my heart, let me see the forest for the trees, the underlying path again within my dreams.

Philosophy:
Every situation in your life, there is an underlying purpose too, if you can “define” and “see” the purpose, then you can generally “get thru” the other side of the situation. Most of the time we see the tree/s-the bad situation in front of us, instead of the forest, the purpose. It is possible if you look for it, to find the needed guidance to “see” the purpose.

Spell for insight, even if it is an insight that you don't want

2006-06-30T14:53:00.000-07:00

6/28/06
Dreams: I am at a house I have never been at, after traveling for a very long time. I find in the house in a drawer a big box of brownies. I am in the home of a movie person and musician. There are movie posters on the wall of the movies he has done and then there is music being played. I don’t feel comfortable at all. The place is filled with people, lots of people. There is an outdoor area, and the property is by the ocean. The water washes up on the sand. I sit there and watch the water wash up on the sand and then it occurs to me that there is something that I need to do-I really really really need to work. So, I go inside and try to work, but something always seems to be interefereing and other people helping me, are truly not helping meI have on my rose cuff bracelet-the new one that I just got yesterday, while thrifting. A large cuff bracelet in sterling silver in the shape of a rose. I look at it and realize that there is no real love in my life anymore. I start to cry, and then I realize I have so much work to do, so…very much. There is so much in my life that I need to do-and so many dreams that I have yet to fulfill. I go to the place where all the mistakes were made and start to fix all the mistakes. It is time for me to focus on this. To fix the mistake It is also time for me to succeed in my ‘other” careers. I realize that I must succeed on my own, on my own terms so that I can be more deeply at peace within myself. As well, then it will be time for love. I will “become” something new inside. It is much harder to “do it” on your own, but this is my time to do that. Love will come when it is time to come. I am so sad about this. I cry and cry. Maybe there will be another way, but maybe this is the “right way” for me. I take the bracelet off…and wake up…

Spell:
I made a glass of cold vanilla chai tea with milk. Vanilla for “love”.
From Sirona Knight
Blessed by this divine cup
Dear Goddess, fill up this cup,
With the wisdom I desire
Clear my insight.
Blessed Lady of wisdom
I (state your name) seek the answer to this question
(State question)
Dear Goddess
I pray to you
Share our wisdom with me tonight!
Knowledge and wisdom abound,
Reasons and answers resound,
Within and without,
Circle front and circle center
Goddess dream with me
The answers lie in my dreams
I will remember when I wake up.

Drink the tea

Daily events:
1) Another job opportunity-totally unexpected arrived. It relates to the dream, I am to focus on my careers.
2) In regards to dating or potential dating, I am finding that I making “friends” (and just friends) with a number of individuals that if I weren’t single I wouldn’t be. I seem to be acting consistently in an advisor sort of position-rather like a therapist. I don’t know if I like it, it just seems to be happening.
3) My roses seem to be blooming. At least one or two buds every week. It is a wonderful way to greet the day, to sit on your own porch and see new roses blooming.
4) The new kitten requires a tremendous amount of attention. He is very playful and rarely leaves me, unless “forced” too. I have raised many kittens in my time and rarely keep them; this one has such strength of personality. Each one seems born with certain characteristics. This one is very strong willed, very stubborn, very loving and extremely smart. He is also almost totally fearless and very aggressive. He is a very interesting contrast to my other cat. Luna all black, while he is all white. She is very passive, he is very aggressive. I think of the balance of black and white when I look at them. The pillars of magic, one black and one white. Both with long hair…and how he came into my life right at mid-summer. Luna is so “traditionally” female and “Snow” (I don’t know if we will keep the name) is so traditionally male.
5) I continue to decorate my home. I am painting etc. I recently finished my desk-it took many months to find it, and I finished it yesterday. Today was my first day with my own desk. And then the dream of work…I finally am close to be organized in such a way as to be most effective in working.
6) I seem to be finding a great many things that I need at thrift stores-like “the perfect desk” that needs to be refinished. Yesterday, the perfect leather briefcase for literally 2.00. My life seems to be moving in such a way for me to “get” all the necessary things that I need for work-like the perfect sized beautifully made leather briefcase, just the right size to take my computer someplace with enough room for a legal pad, notes etc. I am also finding relevant clothes and relevant accessories for my new job opportunities. I found when thifting another day…1.00 skirts in my size. All long, and all suitable for work. All extremely well cut and many of them very expensive pieces. Eight skirts, eight dollars: Four in black, one in navy blue, one in gray and two in dramatic elegant red prints. The universe seems to be “enforcing” my career goals. None of them would be “everyday” kind of clothing-they are the kind of things (with the right accessories) that I would wear to work in my chosen fields. For me thrift store hunting is rather like going on a treasure hunt and what I find that “works” is always symbolic for me. Finding my beautiful desk after looking for so long…and that last week was amazing. And then of course the early morning refinishing of it…making it mine, exactly as I want it.

Philosophy:
Accepting that the universe is a magick place means seeing magick in places that you otherwise wouldn’t. Seeing magick in coincidences…thinking about them. For example, finding the desk, the work clothes, the work accessories (some of them). Also many times you cast and spell and leraning to accept and even see that like the song you don’t always get what you want, but if you try sometimes..You will find (you will see) that you get what you need. That line from that very old Motown song in many ways sums up magickal philosophy and even for me the outgrowth of this spell. I would not even have consciously chosen this course of reality-on the other hand, your thought create your own reality (soo…there is that bugaboo), yet I see that my career/s seem to be propelling forward in rapid directions. I don’t have love in my life right now. I have a “new” direction to pursue. One thing, I always “ask myself’ is which self makes what decision…my “unconscious self”(for example, the Freudian Id, Ego, Superego? Or in Jungian terms…which self, the part of me that is a part of the collective unconscious where purpose lies?)? Which self makes the decisions around my life?

sadness spell that worked

2006-06-27T09:36:00.000-07:00

Spell:
Goddess help me
Goddess guide me,
Guide me thru sadness
Show me the path of gladness
Help me to manifest only the best
Guide me in my rest

A squirt of Lilly of the Valley perfume…

Dreams: I am in a school. The school is in a castle and it is filled with dangers-like Hogwarts. Dangers I don’t understand and am not sure about. I go to a class and am told that part of the process is “problems”. Part of the problems and difficulties is just part of learning. Magick instead of making life easier, many times makes life harder. It is about “going for greatness”. The process of magick is to “make you more”, the more you become, the greater the challenges.

1) My life has really changed since Tim and I broke up, I am much different and I feel much different. I want different things, I became a different person.
2) I don’t know why all the “danger” in my dreams. But there seems to be a danger of sorts…I don’t know what it is. I find that I am more cautious because of it.
3) One thing there are tremendous moments of peace. Sometimes when I am alone, I feel deeply peaceful. When I did the spell, I woke up and felt profoundly peaceful. I think it is important to “see” an underlying purpose to things. To see the forest for the trees.
4) The new kitten is keeping me up at night. He came into my life on midsummer. White with blue eyes.

solstice spell, "will" and discouragement

2006-06-23T15:03:00.000-07:00

I am in a very difficult school. A very hard school. I have to keep working and working, I feel like I am getting nowhere. A guide came to me, he said to me, just to stay the course, have patience. To keep working that is part of the key to success. To just keep at it. To work, and work with some lightness and happiness…just to have discipline, to work very hard and then “let it be”. You have to keep at it, you have to keep trying. It is the difference between those that win and those that lose. He said, just keep at it, it is what makes someone successful, the discipline. He also says that if you get discouraged, you must then “keep at it”, and not quit, and do the daily stuff that needs to be done. Keep the discipline and keep the faith. That is the secret to success. Talent and keeping at it. That you sink deeper and deeper into a depression when you quit, and when you don’t try.

Spell:
From Silver Ravenwolf...
Gemini to Cancer
The moon becomes the Queen
mighty Herme purseus her
in the forest dark and green.
Summer's bright enchantment
workings of my will
"I know" begins the power
that turns the magick mill.

Oceans glitter in the heat
as passions raise the tide
The Oak and Holly navigate
for the favors of the bride.
Summer's bright enchantment
workings of my will
"Iknow" begins the power that turns the magick mill.

Faeries dance upon the air
making circles round
lurning humans to the eath
Beneath the sacred mound
Summer's bright enchantment
workings of my will
"I know" begins the power
That turns the magick mill

Roman Fanus plays the flute
the notes a binding spell
oflove and healing conjunted
from the waters of the well
Summer's bright enchnatment
workings of the my will
"I know begins" the power
that turns the magick mill

Shakespeare's night of potions
bright world of in between
where gnomes hide buried treasure
and devas dance unseen
summer's bright enchantment
The workings of my will
"I know" begins the power
that turns the magick mill.

Crossroads vigilante open
the dead no longer rest
I am a witch and I know how to conjure...
Summer's bright enchantment
workings of my will..
"I know" begins the power
that turns the magick mill.

I am a witch and the power of magick lies with me
Love, success, and passion lies within my reach
So mote it be.

Daily:
1) Worked this week on a new job…very part time…2) Got a few new “charms”, and some new clothes for very little…
3) Very discouraged, got sent a book, in the book, covered the concept of a witches’s will, discipline…keeping at it. I suppose that is what I need to do at this point.

Spell for positive affirmation

2006-06-19T11:05:00.000-07:00

6/18/06
Dreams: I am in a nightclub. I am working on “opening night”. I am with a bunch of people I don’t know. It is very exciting. Then Tim is “there”. He is spending a great deal of time working on various things. We are not even interacting. But he is still “there”. There is so much going on. It is so exciting. I am “the center” of attention. Then I am dancing. I feel happy. I am moving forward with my life. Everything is “coming” together. I turn and look at Tim and say, I guess all I needed was patience. Patience and now everything is coming together.

Spell: Positive affirmation spell.
Based on Sirona Knight…
Take a white candle, and “Heavenly” perfume by Victoria’s Secret (Heavenly is good for confidence and banishing negative energy).
Light the candle and imagine yourself becoming one with the flame. I am the fire of life and the fire of life is within me. Say this 13 times.
Then say, Everyday the divine light of the Goddess flows thru me and helps me to become more positive and healthy. Her healing light flows thru every cell in my body.
(Say this 13 times).
Then sit and “wait” for a positive affirmation “line”. One line to say to yourself when you are upset, scared etc.

Daily:
1) Got a new job today. I think it is related to the dream and spell.
2) My spell for “rich stuff” is manifesting. I went garage saling (treasure hunting). Found a great desk for Rhiannon, found a really beautiful coffee: gray marble, beveled glass, and painted silver steel in a scroll design. I also got some beautiful designer clothes for 50 cents a piece, in my size, by a one of my favorite NY designers. A wonderful large sterling silver bangle bracelet.
3) Colored my hair, and did my nails-found the perfect nail polish on SALE even. Really cleaned.
4) Worked for about 10 hours yesterday organizing myself.

a love spell

2006-06-05T12:33:00.000-07:00

Spell for a great love-hold a spring of tuberose (Wear White Shoulders perfume)
In the midnight hour
By the power of this passionate flower
Bring a great love to me
One of power and passion
So mote it be.

Dreams: A guide came to me and told me that I needed to do something for myself. He said…always look my best and make myself “do things” everyday. Make myself write, make myself do what makes me feel effective. Work very hard on fulfilling myself. Do what it takes to feel good about yourself. Really really good about yourself 1) Be open and aware of yourself emotionally 2) Connect with other people 3) Live your life. Live fully.

Daily:
1) The above is the response to the spell-to live fully and then “someone will come” into my life.
2) Realized in regards to living fully how much more I need to do, to do that. Sat down and made a list in regards to that. Started to analyze the parts of myself that I need to change, to become “more” fully alive.
3) When running some errands with Tim, we discussed really enjoying life.

Philosophy:
In magick, many times a spell does not work right away. You need to change internally to make it work. The spell will for example, give you an opportunity to get a job (see past blog), but then you have to do the work. Or in this case, I have to analyze myself and think again what I need to live more fully.

the probability spell

2006-05-31T11:19:00.000-07:00

Dreams: I dreamt that I was living in a magickal place. It was a magickal house/magickal school. I am teaching there. Very like the place in the movie Practical Magic with Nicole Kidman and Sandra Bullock, but this place was much larger. A place of magick, with magickal people. It was also very artistic and very creative.
Had a dream with Tim in it.
The monster “came back” again. He was there, in my current living room and I saw him. I won’t let you have your best reality, your best probability. Why, I said? What gives you the power to “control” that? You don’t give up, do you? What harm am I too you? He looked at me and he said, “Who are you to win in your life, and get your dreams when the rest of us don’t have them?” Who is “we”? Then he left, before he answered.

Spell:
Sapphire stone of the oracle,
Explain to me
Why this situation (state situation in three words or less)
Is in my probability…
As I wear this stone tonight
In my dreams
Give me probability insight.

Daily:
1) Got a new job…
2) Applied for another job-a dream job. And that seems to be “progressing”.
3) Looking at car…
4) May get a black kitten…waiting to find out.

Anonymous comes back and "wins"-power

2006-05-29T13:30:00.000-07:00

Thewitchesblog
From Anonymous: "One thing that Wicca teaches is to be tolerate of those that are different from ourselves." Is what you wrote intially and now you and your friends are getting so hostile and bitter with your respnoses lmao I knew I could break y'all..I win like I expected to. I always win. It's been fun looking for the next response...thanks for the fun entertainment..”.

How did you win and what is winning in these terms? By posting this haven’t I “tolerated” you? By responding haven’t I “tolerated” you? I have even "featured" your letters. And truthfully, the responses have been in many ways very Wiccan. From Samhain the question on what you have lost and why you are so angry? Spooks challenged your “positive ness”. Is this hostile? Is this bitter? Samhain, asking what you have lost is not hostile. Spooks stating that you are not positive is also not hostile.
As well, if someone were hostile, how do you win then? You “win” by manipulating someone’s hostility towards you? You “prove” that you can make someone hostile at you? That you can goad someone enough and “be mean enough” to have someone get angry at you? This somehow means that you have power in a situation? That you can be so mean…and can goad someone so well…that they respond to it. This is winning? If you “won” and I am not sure even in your terms you did, you won hostility. Is that a win? And your form of entertainment is “gain hostility” from someone? What does that say about you? My form of entertainment is to watch romance movies.
Again, what are you winning? It is a very American belief, to win in all things, no matter what the price or the cost. I have run into this belief before. That is you can manipulate someone to be angry with you, and that in some fashion by doing this, can “control” them. You can control their emotions, because they are angry with you. That is essentially a very Machiavellian belief. Another version of this is to “reject” someone so much, that they get hurt, and want to win your affection for their ego. This is a belief in power no matter what the cost. I do not think you can “win” with that belief.

I believe that there are many “levels” to power. For example, if you take a gun and point it at someone and say “do this” and they “do it”, that is power. But it is a very low level of power and essentially not effective for any period of time. As soon as the gun is taken away…or put down, the power is eliminated. The highest level of power is the ability to “get what you want”, without resorting to violence. Insults and attacks are another version of violence. This power is the highest level because you can maintain that level of power for a much longer period with much better results. For example, if you are an entrepreneur and ten people work for you, and they do so at a lower level of pay then they would normally get because they believe in you and your product. That high level of commitment is a much higher level of power. It is a form of power thru purpose. Power thru insults or thru meanness or attacks is short term and doesn’t last very long. So if did win…you won a very short term win. An old saying, “you get more fly’s with honey then vinegar”. But see it takes more to win (gain power) thru honey, then thru vinegar. It takes more skill for that entrepreneur to gain that commitment from his people, then to point a gun or a gun of insults at someone. The other thing about power thru violence is that many times it turns against you. So for example, if you are pointing a gun at someone and getting them to do what you want in this very low level of power-when they can, they will turn that gun on you. Verbal violence is just a better form of gun. But it is still a form of violence. When you ‘win” (and again what kind of win) by attack, then people turn around and attack you back. If they do this, are you winning? For example, if you attack me and I attack you back-you have won an attack. But what good is that win? If you win thru purpose, then when and if you are attacked, that person will fight with you.
One thing about my version of Wicca is to examine yourself and your beliefs. I try to do that every month. Plato says, a life unexamined is not worth living. I suggest that you examine your beliefs in many areas…is that hostile? I don’t think so. I am truly not angry with you. I am not even “hostile” towards you. But I profoundly do not agree with you and I am expressing that opinion. I am trying to follow the rules of debate that I learned many years ago in philosophy class. Basically, if you disagree state it and state why and state an argument. Do not “personally” attack (name calling) the opposing side. For example, calling someone “psycho” is “name-calling”. But asking if someone is angry is not. Are you angry? Have you lost something? There is a vast difference. One shows tolerance and one doesn’t. This site is a forum of ideas. Disagreeing with someone is part of having a forum.

Anonymous says goodbye, 2 synchronistic events

2006-05-26T15:49:00.000-07:00

More comments from Anonymous
BTW You two are obviously unemployed and single if you have all this time on your hands to write here daily multiple times a day. IF you have children I feel real sorry for them! Irregardless this WILL be my last point to you useless poor excuses for mankind! I can't be bothered to challenge you any longer, life is too short and I am far too happy of a person then to fall for this BS and negativity!

Attention: Anonymous

What IF for the sake of this argument I WERE unemployed. Does that mean that what I write here has less value? Did Van Gogh have little value because he was unemployed for almost his entire life? Most unemployed people don’t do ANYTHING at all. But IF I were unemployed, and doing this, I am STILL DOING SOMETHING. And take for example, not Samhain (who I truly am not) but Brianna. Something I said here “inspired” her. So IF I were unemployed does that value “go away” or “make it less”? At least IF I am unemployed, then I am doing something.
As well, and this is fascinating to me, you wrote this when I was writing the fourth charka posting during lunch. I age egg rolls and wrote this. You are synchronistic ally writing about my lack of employment AT THE SAME TIME, I am writing about empowerment. And finding and “owning” your own power. Relatedly, I am writing about finding ‘path of heart”-which is related to jobs. I was writing about a talented musician who chooses to not be a musician because it is not “stable”. I actually know of someone who did that, and they are miserable. Now, is that even practical? And what is practical? I think of someone who goes to NY or LA to try and “make it”. If they don’t succeed for ten years, but in the eleventh year create a song that makes a million dollars they are actually MORE financially successful in the long run. But during those ten years of struggle and even unemployment are their ideas “worthless”? Are they worthless? Jesus Christ (who I do not believe I am-reference your old email), was poverty stricken for his entire life. Was he “worthless” and Michael Milliken of Wall Street fame worth more?
Someone I know who is IN YOUR TERMS a great success (i.e. very rich) once told me of a friend who was struggling to be an actor in LA. For seven months he went to audition after audition after audition and got one small role in a commercial and nothing else. My VERY VERY VERY successful friend WAS proud of his “struggling friend” and said, you know…that is what makes success drive, ambition, and determination to succeed. And he will succeed because he won’t give up. In your terms, that person who was unemployed for seven months is “worthless”, but my incredibly rich friend admired him for his determination and even said it mirrored his own when he started out. Essentially, his definition of success was to go for what you wished for to not give up-and if you did that, really did that, and then you will succeed. That is apparently what he did and it worked for him.
You seem very angry as well, and truthfully in anger you cannot be happy. I do not know you and I do not claim to you know or your life. But by your letters you seem very judgmental, controlling, and incredibly angry. And I could be wrong, because I know you not. I do not see how someone so angry can be happy. Anger interferes with happiness, it truly does. I do not think I have ever been ANGRY and HAPPY.
Another coincidental experience, last night I went out to dinner with Tim-I wrote this in the fourth charka. It is interesting that we seem to have this synchronistic “connection” (at least today), and I told him…that I had made a commitment to being positive. That I had made a commitment to act from a space of inner peace as much as possible. And yet today you seem to be saying I am negative. That is ironic…and again synchronistic. I have had TWO synchronistic events with you in the past 24 hours. How incredibly interesting and odd.
And you are saying goodbye. Goodbye and again may you have your path of heart?

The fourth chakra

2006-05-26T13:11:00.000-07:00

5/26/06
Dreams: I have a job that I do and I don’t like. It is sales. The boss comes in and tells everyone that they are leaving-fired and that they must pack up and go. I start in my mind to calculate what I must do in regard to money etc. As well, some of the people I consider my new friends at work are crying and are very upset. I decide intuitively to “delay” packing up. I don’t know why. Then what I do…is I ask the “boss” if I can stay a little later because I am behind in packing everything up. I follow my intuition. The boss agrees. As I am packing up, he starts to ask me questions about myself the job etc. I talk to him at length and finally he says to me. You are just “filled with ideas” aren’t you? And then he asks me a lot more questions about my ideas. You’re an idea person. He says, I remember you; you’re the one who did the one very large sale. I say yes. What’s you name he asks me? I tell me and I say, you don’t know my name? Then he says. You are rehired. Show up here tomorrow one hour earlier.

Spell for fourth charka…Sirona Knight with my modifications
Light a yellow candle:
You who are sacred and divine
I seek the power that is mine
Give to me my birthright
So that I may shine so very very very bright

Take your healing stone…and place it approximately six inches over the upper part of your stomach and the lower part of your ribcage (where the fourth charka is located) and move the stone clockwise. This opens this charka. “See” or “envision” white light or “light” moving into the charka. Do this for a few minutes after saying the above spell.
Then mediate. Ground out the circle.

Daily event:
1) Did the above spell and got the above dream. Well, so “my power” lies in my ideas. And “following” my intuition.
2) Two more “opportunities” to “share ideas” presented themselves this morning. Kind of interesting. Did the spell, had the dream, and then the “opportunities”. Again, we shall see. I already have so much work to do anyway. But it is great fun.
3) Tim took me out to dinner last night.
4) Rhiannon and I are talking quite a bit as of late on of all things politics. It is good to truly talk for a long long time to your daughter. I like her, I like how she thinks. I like what she has to say. I think I will like her more and more as she grows. It is like watching your child turn slowly into your best friend? At least that is what I hope for.
5) I am considering getting some kittens. To make myself feel “more at home” where I am at. Pets fill up a space, fill it with life.

Philosophy:
Everyone has a path or heart or a path of purpose in life (shamanism as I have learned it). Embracing that path and finding that purpose is the path of heart. It is a very…to do X.
For example, “to communicate and share ideas”, “to heal”, “to teach”, “to create”, “to innovate”, “to preserve”. Owning your power is finding that path of heart, and acting on it.
On a more rational level, it is about finding your talent. Some people are truly gifted teachers. Other people are truly gifted at listening-which is an act of healing etc. And then of course acting to utilize and train that skill. You maybe a wonderful healer, but you need to go to med school, or even to healing school. According to shamanism, many times we “block” that thru our fears. For example, a gifted healer does not go to med school because of his family, even though he has a scholarship. Or a gifted musician does not become a musician because it is not a “stable” career choice. Following thru on our dreams, finding and training our gifts is “the path of heart” or “the path of purpose”.
Fear and our beliefs many times block us, but that is part of the path, overcoming those fears and those beliefs.

a good night

2006-05-25T20:14:00.000-07:00

The Witches Blog:
Dreams:
I dreamd that I was at a party in LA and I was the hostess. Then I went to bed and in the middle of the night I woke up and the door was open. I am “home”.
I am in a NY party. I have good friends there. I am happy, peaceful. I am “home”.
I am by a house by the sea, and my dead Dad and Grandma show up.
Spell:
Goddess help me, guide me and tell me true, my path of heart and what I should do.
In my dreams I wish to see happiness and peace so mote it be.
Daily:
1) Well, I did the spell and I got peaceful dreams. So…yeah…no monster on this night. The dreams were also very rich, and filled with family and friends. Although I do not live in LA or NY. I miss both places at times.
2) Got a good job opportunity. Don’t know what will happen.
3) Do not often see my Dad or Grandma in dreams. I always feel a sense of loss when I waken. We never truly stop missing someone we love, no matter how many years.
Philosophy:
Many witches speak of the Summerland in death. A place of endless summer and beauty.

Anonymous's letter on pyschosis and my response

2006-05-23T14:51:00.000-07:00

Manifestations of Psychotic EpisodesA typical psychotic episode manifests itself in one or more of the three following ways:1. Hallucinations: believing something is there that actually is not there. Hearing something strange and knowing that it is strange is not a hallucination. The hallucinator perceives the voice; their brain says, "That's Dad calling me," with no doubt at all. The non-hallucinator hears the voice and says, "Could that possibly be Dad calling me? But he moved out a year ago." If you are not sure what you heard or even if you wonder if it is a hallucination, it is not a hallucination. A hallucinator is absolutely positive (though they may have their doubts later on). So, during a psychotic episode, you usually "hear voices." 2. Delusions: believing something is true that couldn't possibly be true. I'm not talking about believing that Bill Clinton never had sex with Monica Lewinsky. I'm talking about physical impossibilities or grandiose ideas such as believing that you were born on Mars or that you are Jesus Christ come back to life.The most common delusion is paranoia: fear that gets way out of hand. You may be constantly afraid that bad things will happen to you or that people will hurt or betray you. You may pick up your gun every time you answer the door.3. Problems With CommunicationProbably the most common thing that happens during a psychotic episode is that you have a lot of trouble talking straight. Your words and sentences get garbled -- all mixed up like a "word salad." Each individual phrase or sentence makes sense, but they are out of order and you never quite get to the point.Can you look at people (or yourself) and see symptoms of mental illness? of psychosis?Psychosis? That can sometimes be easy to spot. If a person trapped in a psychotic episode comes out and tells you about his or her hallucinations or delusions, it can become pretty clear that they have psychiatric problems. A good rule of thumb is: Don't try to diagnose anyone unless it is necessary for survival.YOU AND A FEW OF YOUR REGULAR RESPONDENTS NEED A LESSON IN ALL THIS THAT IS VERY CLEAR!!!

Response:
1) I channeled a book-“heard voices”. So did Jane Roberts, Edgar Cayce and others. In one of her books “Psychic Politics”, Jane Roberts discusses ‘seeing” a creature in a puddle. One level she “sees” this creature on another level she knows that is not “part of the real world”. But she also believes that it may exist in “another world” or another “frame of reference”. And the puddle creature inspires her as a writer. When I channeled I went into another state of mind-like a dream or a meditative state. What I “heard or saw” in this state on mind is I wrote down. Then I “came out of it”. This was true for Edgar Cayce and Jane Roberts. There is even a book by Sanaya Roman called “how to channel”? All of these individuals “heard voices”, but it is another state of mind.
So even though I have “heard voices” in other states of mind, I think that I have a good grip on reality so to speak and so do my readers, from what I know of them and what I can tell. Like Jane Roberts, I believe that there are different levels of reality. String theory discusses this and so does quantum theory. Essentially, there are different layers or levels of the mind or reality (again I reiterate this is part of string theory and quantum theory). And I have written in this blog that one definition of magick is the ability to change consciousness as will. Dion Fortune believes that one level of reality “contains” another level. I know not. But those are her beliefs and they are fascinating to me. The astral plane something that many magickal people believe in. At what point does a belief become an hallucination. Was Dion Fortune crazy? Were Edgar Cayce and Jane Roberts psychotic? They were able to “tell” one level of reality from another. But they certainly “heard voices”. Did Seth (the voice that spoke thru Jane Roberts) exist? Well, “he” had not physical body. But the theories that were written by Jane Roberts thru Seth were and still are fascinating. Jane Robert’s concept of “Aspect psychology” is also fascinating. And Jane Roberts, Robert Butts and others believed in the “Seth voice”. I think your definition of psychotic is limited. Jane Roberts could distinguish and utilize her “visions” if you will in her work as poet and writer. I think a better definition of psychotic is someone who cannot cope with everyday reality-or cannot distinguish between what is reality and what isn’t. Jane Roberts knew that her puddle creature did not exist in “this reality”. So she heard voices and was not psychotic. You cover this a bit, saying that a psychotic is “absolutely positive” (in regards to their beliefs in the hallucination). I would say that you have a very limited understanding of psychology and again that your definitions of limited.

2) I do not believe that I am Jesus Christ and that I was born on Mars. I have not read anything from my readers that say they do either. Do I believe that people will hurt me? Well, I believe that sometimes in my course of daily interactions I may and probably within my lifetime get hurt. Someone will “hurt” my feelings. Or rather my feelings will “get hurt” at some point. Is a belief in magick a grandiose idea? Many Wiccans and many people believe in magick and the power of spells. But then again many people believe in the power of prayer. A Christian friend of mine sees very little difference between spells and prayers. Are all of these people deluded? I don’t see this blog as being filled with grandiose ideas. I do see it being filled with ideas, concepts and constructs on metaphysics, magick, philosophy etc. One of the reasons I post your work is that it is an “idea”. Being called ‘a freak” is an idea. So I published that comment. And why did you call me a “freak”? Because I believe in magick? Well, I do believe in magick. And so do millions of people pagans, Wiccans etc. I consider magick essentially part of Jungian psychology. And that it “plumbs” the depths of the mind. Symbols are ways of communicating with “different levels of the mind”. We dream in symbols. A spell is a communication with one part of the mind to another part of the mind. In Freudian terms, a spell would be the Ego communicating with the unconscious or the id. Again, someone who believed in different levels of the mind-Freud-reference question 1. Carl Jung also believed in the Collective Unconscious-which might be the root theory of magick. That essentially if you go deep enough into the unconscious mind, you will run into “group mind”. If the mind communicates thru symbols, and within your own mind is “group mind”, then…maybe there is a rational basis for magick. It is possible to “affect” someone thru your own mind. It is an interesting theory. On a very logical rational level, it is certainly possible for one person to affect another person. Again, gossip can hurt someone’s feeling. Maybe after doing magick, you feel stronger or more able to withstand gossip…or maybe to effect your actions. You do a spell; you may change your behavior or your actions (or reactions as the case maybe). You feel stronger, you “see thru” the other person etc. Maybe the spell “inspires you”? Maybe the spell changes your perceptions of the event.

3) I do not think that I have been discussing my hallucinations. One thing I have tried to do is to factually explore the different levels of the mind. For example, I have had a consistent group of dreams about an “alligator monster” or X. I read Dion Fortune’s book, and put salt and water in my room. In the dream again there was the alligator, but this time with “protective fairies and elves”. Did the salt and water affect my dream? Well, it was a better dream. Why was it a better dream? I am not sure. The alligator creature in my dream was “less powerful”, “less frightening”.
And another dream that night that I remember is three projects to work on. I am currently in my life working on two projects. But RIGHT AFTER THE DREAM, an offer of another project came into my day to day life. Was the dream precognitive? Are there different “levels” of reality? Are the different levels of reality correlated? What are the correlations? How do the various levels interact? To me, magick is about asking questions-all the time and exploring different ideas and different thoughts, and different thought processes. Magick and Wicca is a very experiential religion-at least in my terms. You try a ‘recipe” for X (in that case it was to experiment with psychic protection), and X happens. Are their demons? I post a dream one day in my blog and I get a response of an “alligator demon” which is looked kind of like a combination of an alligator, snake, and spider. Was it a demon? What is a demon? Do demons exist and if so how and why? These are my dreams. Today, I got a letter on what is the difference between demonology and witchcraft. Well, it depends on how you practice witchcraft. According to Silver Ravenwolf, a renowned Wiccan-there are no such things as demons. Demons are merely constructs of the Christian mindset. A witch of some renown who does not believe at all in demons. According to Jane Roberts’s philosophy, if I believe in demons, then they exist. What you believe in manifests in your daily life. On the other hand, I had this dream…and I dreamt of this creature. What does it mean? I am willing to explore the concepts, and ideas with others. Samhain wrote about the demon and then said “I don’t know if I believe in demons”. Well, neither do I. But I will think on it. I will consider it. I will discuss it. I studied philosophy for many years and think of this as a place to potentially share ideas and concepts…with no judgment. To simply consider different ideas. According to Plato a life unexamined is not worth living. By considering this ideas and concepts, I am examing my life, myself and my beliefs. Colin Wilson in the book, “The Occult” essentially says that the mind is the next frontier of knowledge. That we know very little of its abilities. Essentially, instead of going into outer space, why not go into “inner space”. In this blog I am attempting to go into “inner” space and have others join me for discussion and exploration.
One thing about an inability to talk straight (your comment). Many times I just write this and publish it. Well, one thing that happens is that I DO have a life to live and two if not three projects. This blog maybe filled with typos, run on sentences etc. Simply because I am very limited in time. But essentially, my arguments are “rational” even if you do not agree with them. One of the last things that you write is to NOT diagnosis anyone, and then essentially you write that “we need lessons”. Essentially you obliquely diagnosis “us”. You are doing what you are advising us not to do. I wrote of what Dion Fortune did and really synthesize it. I did not write the methods etc. This is what is in the book dated 1957. I myself do not wish to diagnosis anyone. I was simply writing what she had done.

Dion Fortune...fairies, elves and the alligator that won't leave

2006-05-22T14:53:00.000-07:00

Dreams: In my dreams, my room was filled with fairies and elves in a protective manner. The “alligator” creature was there, but could not “do much”. We were “all together” in this room. He (she or it) would not leave. But was limited in “its” threats.
Later: I am at work, working on three projects, it is very peaceful.

Spell from Dion Fortune:
Place water with salt or vinegar in the four corners of the room, when faced with needed protection. Did this right before I went to bed. According to Dion, this doesn’t last long. But I did have a good “protective” dream that night.

Daily Events:
1) Working and feel very peaceful like in my dreams. The focus of my life right now is in many ways work, I love what I am doing. And I feel peaceful when I work.
2) I was sick for about three days, but I am much better now.
3) Maybe starting a new project. This could be “the third project”. I don’t know.

Philosophy:
Dion Fortune’s Book on Psychic Self-defense is very old-published in the late 1950’s. It looks at psychic self defense both in metaphysical and psychological terms. What is psychic attack? Is it real or isn’t it etc.? In one very real sense, an insult can be a psychic attack. Or someone in one way, form or another, “harming us”. Gossip is another form of psychic attack. Fortune also covers concepts in regards to levels of the mind…which goes back to the definition of magick as ‘the ability to change consciousness at will”. She talks about the physical plane, the astral plane, the spiritual plane, and the highest fourth plane. Some people believe that the astral plane is also the dream plane. This is based on “ancient mystery school beliefs”. And talks about the ability of someone to attack let’s say from one plane to the other. And each plane “contains” the plane underneath it. I think sometimes when I read this of string theory, and on the one “level” contains the other level. Again, I like to compare and read both magickal theory with scientific theory. Even Dion Fortune takes the psychological theories of the time and compares them with magickal theory. To me, this is a crucial part of magick to study the latest theories in no matter what context, and to consider them.

chakra cleaning, the monster again...love

2006-05-16T12:32:00.000-07:00

5/16/06
Spell: Chakra cleansing…
Light a red candle. Use a healing stone. When saying the rhythm, take the stone into your hand and have it circle on top of the charka clockwise 7 times. (Did the spell in the moon of Capricorn…Capricorn is good for balance)(Rythme is from Sirona Knight)
Say once for each chakra:
Giver of life
Let your healing powers
Envelope my being
Give me strength
Give me healing
Wipe the slate clean
Let me live my dream

Dreams:
The crocodile snake is back. But it looks around my home and leaves-but before it leaves it says-I will be back. I will not let you live your dream (reference to the spell). I ask why? Why I am not allowed to live my dreams? And who are you to tell me that I cannot? Who are you and what are you doing here? I command you to leave. He (it) looked at me and said he was. And he said, I am still here…even though I am gone. My spirit lives with you. How do I get rid of you? Why would I tell you? I “command” you, to tell me how I get rid of you for good.
I am in a courtroom on trial. The ask me about my lovers and how many I have had. How men I have dated etc. I say, I don’t see the relevance of this to the case.
Then I am getting ready for a date. I have three choices on where to go and who to see. I ask myself, OK, I am in a dream…but three choices? Three guys? I sit down and I analyze this. Three guys to choose from in regards to my life? I find that I feel very confused. This is not a comfortable feeling. I go into my bedroom and find three different outfits to wear on three different dates-one with each man. Three different selves.
Rhiannon (my daughter) comes into the room and looks at each of the clothes on the bed and I tell her I have three dates and each outfit is for each date. She picks up one with a black dress. I like this one. I laugh. Mom…I think it’s OK for you to date, but three different guys? I say…well…three is a magic number. They are all friends right now. , anyway. Oh, well, that’s different. Why do you have your clothes on the bed? Well, I like to plan ahead what I am going to wear when I go out. It saves time, and eases pressure. If something is “important” (like a date) decide ahead of time. Are these dates important she asks? I look at her and say…I don’t know…probably not. She picks up the black dress. I like this one the best. Then I like this one. It is an outfit of white pants and a white top. And then finally, a “black and white” outfit (combination)-black pants and a white top. I said, well, there is a theme here. Black, white, and black and white. Maybe you should go on a date and have some color she says. I look at her and say what color?

Daily:
1) Did this spell and felt much much better. But I also “got” visions of my past and a lot of stuff “that hurts”. I guess these are unresolved issues. I cried and then I felt a sense of relief.
2) In my dreams, I have the choice of three men. There are various friends and business associates in my daily life that are men. So…maybe??? But I do not know who the three could be at this time.
3) I take a long walk and am really inspired in many ways.

Philosophy: Today, I read “responses” to my blog on demonology and find out that what I am dreaming of “could be a demon”. In New Orleans, I “ran into this” when I studied voodoo extensively. I also had some “weird” experiences. I “looked” up deliriumrealm.com, as was recommended. The definition of demonology is based upon Jungian psychology which is very (in my terms) Wicca. Also, if many people believe in something, doesn’t the energy of that create it on some level?
A demon is a fear, or an “unresolved” trauma (or pain) within your psyche. Am I dreaming of an “unresolved” fear-it is gone but not gone now (according to the dream). I had at least a good night’s sleep. It is also something that “takes your energy”. As well, a “demon” could be an “enemy”. Someone in your life that causes you pain, hardship…etc. A demon could be “an illness”. This of course refers to shamanism or “healings” when a shaman “rids” an illness-he or she is “fighting a demon”.
When you study Wicca, you are “required” in magick to “face your demons”. This causes tremendous growth or change in the psyche. It is not “required” in the sense that they sit you down and “say”-you must face your demons. Instead, it seems to “manifest” in reality, that when you study Wicca and you cast spells…what is preventing you from having what you want or what you wish or X (whatever you requested in the spell) seems to “come back at you”. I call this “lashback”. I guess another term would be “demon”.
According to many magickal traditions, you can “call a demon” and it will “give you great power”. But generally there is a huge price to pay.

Philosophy in regards “to love”: Who you pick for your love is a reflection of “the best part of you”. What you wish you could be. Different “loves” involve “different parts of you that you are exploring”. One love could bring out the adventurer in you. Another love could bring out the intellectual in you. In my dream, I have three potential loves and my clothes also reflect three different loves. But I don’t know in my conscious reality…my day to day life, who they are? I wonder in regards to the color question…do I see “love” in terms of black and white?

Moon in Scorpio and the "monster in my dream"

2006-05-15T16:11:00.000-07:00

Witches Blog:
Spell:
Scorpio Full moon in my sign
Give me the power that is mine
By the above star and my bracelet star
Guide me, help me, tell me true
Thru my dreams and inspiration,
What I need to do.

Dreams: I am living in an apartment or house. And it is a big beautiful place, but there are there horrible creatures that are sometimes with me in this apartment. They are half crocodile and half rattlesnake. One of them takes my pillow, and I can’t really get it back…I’m not sure. Another one of them takes my jewelry and I can’t it get back. I try everything and nothing works. I am ‘stuck”. I have to deal the “rattlesnake” creature. How do you deal with such a horrible horrible horrible creature? Well, one thing is simply to destroy it, another way is to simply move. I can’t seem to move and the damned thing…well, I can’t get rid of it (or kill-I don’t really want to kill it-I just want it gone).But the creature just takes and takes and takes and takes. That’s all it does. If you give it an inch, it takes a mile. For example, if you give it the pillow, it moves into the bed. I look at it and say, “Why are you here”? What can I do about you? I can’t get rid of you. What do I do about you? Do I fight with you-do I accept you…what do I do about you? When I talk to it, it bites me. I think I have to find a way to “get rid of it”.

Daily:
1) There is a monster in my home, according to my dream. What is this monster and what is it doing there? Spells and dreams correlate sometimes…which makes sense psychically because both deal with the unconscious mind.
2) Interestingly enough, as soon as I wrote this (the above daily), I had a horrible fight with Tim. I believe in “owning” my reality. Why is this in my world? How am I a part of it? What part of me both consciously and unconsciously has chosen to have this in my life and for what purpose?

Philosophy:
To give a spell more power, you are to check the moon sign that you are in. Based on astrology, the different moons and the “state of the moon” give a spell more “zap” then not. For example, yesterday the full moon was in Scorpio that is the sign of passion and a good time to cast a love (or passion) spell. Scorpio is also good (like most water signs) for inspiration. I still “cast” spells based upon need and “ignore” to an extent the moon sign, but I have found that a spell works much better when there is coordination between the moon and the spell. Wicca “tunes into” nature…it tunes into the natural rhythms of life, being aware of the different moons, like being aware of the different seasons sometimes helps you to harmonize within yourself. I have also learned that when the moon is “in your sign”(which Scorpio is my sign) then there is another added “zap”.

the man of my dreams...

2006-05-10T16:33:00.000-07:00

5/10/06 The Witches Blog:
I apologize to my readers. Tim and I have broken up (yet again), but due to circumstances “beyond my control”; it seems that we still are living together. As I have found in the past, many times when I need magick the most…when I am “in trouble” or “in pain”, this is the time when I “back away from it”. Yet, I have still continued the practice and find that it is internal peace for me. Once I was told that the purpose of the practice of magick-white magick at least, is “to become”. To grow to follow our “path of heart”. I simply have found it very difficult to post such painful and personal stuff. I did a spell (see as follows), a love spell and I have found that within my dreams someone has come to me. The person (man) of my dreams talks with me and tries to heal me. He is first and foremost my friend. This man of my dreams, I will call him Paul…literally “talks me thru” this break-up. But since he is a man in my dreams, I find that his insight and point of view is very unique. Within my dreams he comes to me, speaks to me, and awaken within peace-even if I cry myself to sleep. I find that his words…bring me love in a way that I have never had before. Unfornately, he is a man of my dreams-and not real. But thru his “dream guidance”, again, many times I find wisdom and inner peace.

It is a spell that I have done time and time and time again within the last few weeks. I am also working very hard-probably the hardest in my life. One thing that has manifested is that for the first time in my life, my professional opportunities are the best they have ever been-but I must follow thru on them. This requires a discipline and patience within myself that has never before been required of me. As well, I must “overcome” my tears and my pain each and everyday-in order to succeed. I must “truly” live my Wiccan path as never before. The challenge is difficult and amazing. I must face “my demons” and “my fears” as never before.

Spell (modification of a spell from Sirona Knight):
Light a rose scented candle and wear a rose scented perfume (I wear “Tea Rose” by “The Perfumers Workshop).
Scent of beautiful roses so red
Bring love to my bed
Love is strong within my dreams
Glowing with stars and bright moonbeams.

four leaf clover charm

2006-03-30T12:10:00.000-08:00

Four leaf clover charm

Cast a circle
Charm charm on my arm,
Protect me from all harm
Earth, Air, Fire, Water
Every element lies within this charm
Magick make manifest for me
Each day I that I wear it.
So mote it be.

Philosophy;
One part of wicca is to imbue physical objects with magickal “power”. Many times this is done on a full moon, but truthfully anytime that you “need” or require a charm of some sort, cast a circle and create a charm. I like to create a rhythm for each object-this creates a needed focus. It takes a while to create a spell. Sometimes I will “create” a charm and then to add an added “boom”, redo the spell on the full moon. I also find that “charms” come to me. I will have a dream, and then I will find a physical object. A charm is a physical object that becomes a conscious symbol for something else. For me, a four leaf clover is a symbol of the four elements of magick. A few months back, I started dreaming that I was in a castle, and it was somewhere in Ireland. I dreamdt of wearing a four leaf clover bracelet. Then very soon after, I found a beautiful four leaf clover bracelet on the internet as I was browsing-way beyond my price range. On impulse yesterday, I went to a local store and found a beautiful four leaf clover pendant in sterling silver at a very low price. Taken off the chain and attached to my bracelet, I have my four leaf clover bracelet. Since I have dreamdt of this bracelet so often it has become a symbol of my “magick castle”. By casting a spell on it immediately, the symbol will become even more powerful. Many people wear a “cross” when they are Christian as a symbol for their religion. This charm will be a subtle powerful symbol for me of the irish wiccan tradition as I practice it.

Dreams:
Dreamdt of a baby, a baby girl-kind of interesting. Her name begins with M-Miranda or Mariah or something. I am working while caring for the baby. I also am going to a party in LA and am worried about my weight.

the path of heart

2006-03-27T16:46:00.000-08:00

3/27/06
Dreams:
I am in London. The trip is really “hard”. I “go to” Merlin’s cave. I find myself at the ruins of Camelot. Again obstacles to getting there. I find myself overlooking the lake of Avalon. I am seeking magick and magickal places-but there are many obstacles in my way.

Spells: Dream spell
Before I go to bed, I light a candle for the color of the guidance that I wish for. Red for love. Purple for career issues (purple is the color of power). White for inner peace(spirituality) etc.
Then I repeat seven times:”Goddess help me, guide me, tell me true what it is that my path of heart demands that I do”.

Daily:
1) Spent the day quietly meditating and “thinking” over various ‘issues’ in my life.
2) Wondered at why “my path of heart” was so “difficult” at times.

Philosophy:
Path of heart is a shamanistic concept. It essentially means follow your heart. Most of us DO NOT DO THIS. The path is too difficult, too hard. The path of heart is also about following and attempting to follow your dreams and your purpose. Most of us follow “the practical life” instead of utilizing the differing parts of our mind to utilize practicality to make manifest our dreams. I “do” the spell at least once a week and I find that it almost always works. I “gain” a dream that creates for me, the needed insight to “follow” the path of heart. I make goals for my dreams, and then I make “practical” methodologies to “make them manifest”. To follow the path of heart many times requires taking risks and making changes in our lives. It is not the “practical” path, instead it is the path of utilizing practicality. To me this is again part of balance. I don’t think we were “meant” to shut off, the intuitive parts of our mind’s eye. We were meant to make our dreams come true. We were given those dreams for a reason. In my dream, I encounter many obstacles in England. Obstacles at Merlin’s cave or obstacles at the ruins of Camelot. There are many obstacles in the “path of heart” and the “path of magick”.

time

2006-03-26T13:33:00.000-08:00

3/26/06
Spell:
A purple candle for power. A watch. Cast the circle.
Time, time
Listen to my rhythm
Please be mine
Please guide me
To use you wisely.
Said 7 times.

Dreams:
I am running to stay in shape and to get into better shape. I go into some kind of school building and I fall into a kind of trap. Within the “trap” lies a lesson and I have to push myself to “get out”. I also have to trust my intuition. While I am running, I find a box of “new make-up”; I pick the stuff up and run home. I try the make-up and it looks good.

Daily events:
1) Some new responsibilities. Time is of the “essence”-the reason for the above spell.
2) Considering the concept of living lightly. Never having anything around that you don’t need or love-this actually saves time. For example, less stuff, less cleaning.
3) I think that the dream is telling me to “trust” my intuition. The dream is also telling me that “it is time for me to push myself”.
4) I have started running again.

Philosophy:
For me part of Wicca is trusting your intuition. Oddly enough, it will “tell you” what to do with your time. You will get an impulse to “take a walk” or to “get a breathe of fresh air”. You get a feeling or a thought to call someone. I find that when I do this, “unexpected” things happen that help me to accomplish what I need to accomplish. There seems to be “interconnections” of a sort. Opportunities have presented themselves in my life, due to following intuition. I also find that I need to trust that intuitive part of myself or it seems to lessen. If I ignore my impulses, then I get less of them. Trusting yourself is a crucial part of this process. That seems to be what this dream is saying. I need to “push” harder on what I am doing, and trust my impulses. That is “my answer” to my spell.

intro kabbalah

2006-03-23T19:00:00.000-08:00

Spell:
Egypt and Ireland how I have dwelt with you in my dreams.
So long, so intimately that it seems
As if you had borne me: though I could not know
It was so many thousand years ago
And in my gropingss darly underground,
The long-lost memory at last is found
Of motherhood-you the mother of us all
And to my fellow man, I must recall
The memory too: that common motherhood
May help to make the common sisterhood.

Dreams:
I am sitting by the ocean and I feel the waves “crash” thru me. I am writing in my “magick” book. I see a ferris wheel in the distance. I think about all the things I have done in my life and all the things I wish I had done in my life-like ride more ferris wheels, have more fun and appreciate more. Part of magick is to appreciate. I feel energy move thru me, a pinkish, yellowish, white, soft creamy light fills me.

The tapestry in my castle needs attention. This is something very important that I must do.

I am in the “Practical Magic” kitchen. But unlike “Practical Magick” movie, there is a greenhouse off to the side. I go into the greenhouse and there is snow everywhere, but not in the greenhouse, the greenhouse is filled with pots of plants that need to be cared for. I water them, and then I go into the house and “do” an herbal spell. I am wearing a long black skirt with a white “camisole” top. My hair is the way I wear it now, in a long French braid.

I go into a library-like my old one and I begin to write.

Daily:
1) Did some research.
2) Didn’t get much done yesterday, was very, very, very, tired-but pitched another deal.
3) Went to the mall yesterday-bought a “symbol” for success
4) Rededicated myself to the Goddess. I am still celebrating Ostara. I think that is the relationship of the above dreams. In all of the “dreams” that I remember there is element of the magickal life.
5) Tim called me ‘beautiful” again today-he hasn’t done that in a long time. He also complimented me on what I wearing. I think this is related to “finding” the critical object where I found it. It inspired me to dress a certain way.
6) The tapestry means that I need to work harder-it needs more attending too.

Philosophy:
The Kabbalah has two pillars, one dark and one white. For me, one pillar represents the logical side of the brain and the other side represents the emotional side(for lack of a better way to verbalize it) of the brain. In the mind’s eye there must be a balance between the “two” sides of the brain and the two “basic” ways of thinking-the logical and the emotional. Magick comes from the emotional intuitive side. Yet there “must” be a balance. Again, the definition, “magick is the ability to change consciousness at will”. To change consciousness or to utilize the “whole” mind, both sides to their fullest capacity dependent upon which on you ‘need” the most. My spell has a small modification from the book “The Arcana of Freemasonry”. For me, Egyptian magick is related to the Kabbalah(also known as the Quabbalah). In my dream, I am wearing black and white-one pillar is white and one pillar is black. In the “age of enlightment”, the Renaissance we as a western world mind moved from “religion” to the “age of reason”. We are a society moved from the white mystical pillar to the black more “rational” pillar. The Kabbalah is about finding “balance” between the two sides of the mind and the two different ways of thinking. If an individual is “totally” rational, they live in a very “sad” world filled with worry and fear and not much happiness. If an individual is “totally” intuitive/emotional-nothing “gets done” and needed “details of life” do not get attended too. A crucial balance between the two is needed.

what was lost is now found

2006-03-22T15:27:00.000-08:00

3/22/06
Dreams:
I am working somewhere and again writing.

Daily:
1) This morning I received a wonderful opportunity-I just finished the prosperity spell.
2) I lost something critical in my life, then did a spell and found it by a perfume counter. I take this as a symbol in regards to finding my perfume.

Spell:
Lit a white candle. Said the following three times.
What was lost is now found.
I will heed the symbolism
And respond
No doubt it will be profound.

Philosophy:
Consider the “symbolism” of what is around you. I wrote in the past that a brown couch is a brown couch, but it is also a ‘symbol” for the element of earth. I have found that many times when something is “lost”, there is a “reason for it”. Indeed, this is true for much of the “bad” stuff that happens to people.

Ostara, channeling, a witch takes risks

2006-03-21T12:24:00.000-08:00

3/21/06Dreams:I am working at a job where I am writing, in a professional place, I have on a long tan skirt-which is odd because even though I wear skirts, I rarely wear “tan”. I am “in my castle” again. There is a door there with a sigal on it-one that I do not know. I again do not have “the key” to this door, but now there is a sigal on it. I want very much to open this door, and then again I am ‘not sure”. It in “my castle” and it is locked-and now the symbolic message that I don’t understand. I am both “happy and sad” at the same time over this door. I truly do not know what to do. Suddenly, a kitten appears at my feet. I have never seen this kitten before, but it is right “age” for adoption. I pick it up. I am “in my house” and there is still pandora’s box in my closet. Daily:1) Am doing “follow thru” with the potential opportunities. 2) I am sick again. So incredibly tired-missed my morning walk.
3) AFTER this dream, I FOUND a tan skirt in a store I regularly shop in ALMOST exactly like the one in my dream. It is the “little” things that “prove magick” to me. Things that you cannot “prove” many times in a traditional scientific way. I think this is related to my spell. I “rededicated” myself to “the goddess” and “magick”, and very small magickal act manifests. A skirt, very close to the one in my dream. A skirt style that is very hard to find. You have to “find” magick and “see” magick, and again “be open” to it-or it does not exist for you.
4) This is VERY odd, this morning I go into my kitchen and open my closet(where my dream is that there is Pandora’s box), and on the floor is a huge box of popcorn that has fallen. Yet another symbol that “comes” out to manifest synchronistically. If I get rid of the popcorn, do I get rid of Pandora’s box? An interesting question? And that box of popcorn has been up in that cabinent for about two months and has never fallen?
5) I did three spells last night, one I wrote of yesterday, one of which I will record here and one which I “will keep silent on”. I chose a spell by Silver Ravenwolf, my version has “been lost”. I have to refind, and rewrite, my ‘old” spells. An interesting “issue” or problem. I must “refine” and “refind” my old spells. In a way to “refine” and “refind” myself. It is said to me, that life is a circle and that many times in many ways, you must “come full circle” to find yourself. You must “go backwards” to “move forwards”. You must face your past before you can begin a “new” future.
6) I drank wine with my dinner-to honor the god and goddess.

Philosophy:
Magick exists, but it does not “wish” to be proved in a scientific terms. I have found it to work in most cases, but only if I allow it too. Again, you “must allow” it into your life, and now “we are a rational” society and shut that portion of our minds off. Yet in “order” to live in our society you must “be rational” and am I “certainly” very rational in “certain areas” of my life. Magick works in small many times symbolic ways. Hard to see, unless you look for it and again “hard to prove”. We chose as well, to “be sophisticated” and rational, magick is “for kids”. To believe in it, is a sign of “immaturity”. And yet kids are filled with wonder. To believe in magick is to still have wonder in your life. Like the box of popcorn. Most people would not “remember” their dreams, and I have “worked” to learn to remember them. And then when they found the box of popcorn would simply have picked it up and “thought nothing of it”. And yet three times(I think) I have dreamdt of Pandora’s box and there seems to always be a correlation: 1) the fight that Tim and I had in that specific area the morning after the dream 2) I dream that the box is in the closet and sure enough, I open the closet and a small box falls on my head 3) I dream about Pandora’s box again, and this morning a large box of “popcorn” lies on the floor. Pandora’s box is of course a symbol for “trouble”, it means that trouble hopefully ‘very small” is on the way. It is also a “means” of “offsetting trouble”. Not many people would “see” that a box of popcorn fallen to floor in the middle of the night would be a “symbol” for trouble of some sort. Indeed, that could be “considered” crazy. “Crazy, odd, eccentric, weird, unconventional, niave, STUPID-those are labels that practioners of magick run into.”. This was “even” in the spell I did last night to celebrate spring, some of the lines of the old spell were, “Here now the words of the witches, the secrets we hid in the night”. They had to be hidden because of the potential for harm of the practitioners. If nothing else, to simply “be called crazy”, or to be labeled “unconventional”. Again, as well, the skirt in the store. I can never PROVE in scientific terms that I dreamdt it and “then it happened”. I can only record it. And it is not even a color that I normally wear. But there it was “the skirt” in the dream and the “skirt” in the store. I am not even sure I will buy it, it is “rather pricey”, and yet…maybe that is lesson contained within it for me. I once heard of a spell when you were poor to burn a hundred dollar bill-that this shows confidence in yourself and the universe. But then I found out, that this was illegal. And is it rational, to burn one hundred dollars when it is against the law, and you are having money troubles? No. I did not do this spell, but IT WORKED for the woman who did do it. And having confidence is indeed a “key” to success. She even told me after she “burned” the money that she felt differently about money and that she would not “allow” money or money fears to “control her”. Within one month she had a very successful job-her dream position. She said, “I realized that money is just paper, it is what we think and believe about ourselves that counts”. As well, for me personally, and those who know me as Samantha Riordan. I channeled a book/s-I heard voices, on magickal philosophy. The definition of “insanity” is “to hear voices”-it means that you are psychotic. Yet my “voices” could be turned “on and off”. I heard them “at will”. When you are psychotic, you cannot “chose” when or if the voices you hear will “come to you”. As well, “they came to me” in another state of mind. I would “chose” to go into that state of mind, and “hear” them. To hear them “was a choice”. A good comparison is watching television(indeed that is WHY IT IS CALLED CHANNEL-ING), you “tune in” or not. You can watch, or you can chose to NOT watch. A psychotic cannot chose when to “turn” them off, they “simply come” and many times are “violent and very self-destructive”. For me, as well, I went into a meditative state “when I heard them” and I would chose “to call them”. For psychotics, they are there, they don’t leave and they cannot be shut off unless with drugs and sometimes not even then. There are “after effects” in society for wiccans or witches(even though according to Alvin Toffler it is the “next” big religion), to be called crazy, “evil”, etc. due to the tremendous lack of understanding. Once someone asked me “how many babies have you murdered”? I said, NONE-I do not kill babies. Her response was, “all witches kill babies”. I said, NO, you don’t understand. Her response was, “you are evil”. I said, do not make judgements on that which you do not understand. To be a “witch” is to take risks-later in the same spell, THE NEXT LINE, “when dark was our destiny’s pathway, that now we bring into the light”. To bring “into the light”, to bring understanding. Intolerance is a kind of “darkness”.

Spell-I chose Silver Ravenwolf’s version last night.
I did this spell at midnight-I lit one white candle. My favorite white candle. I wore a white lace top and a long black skirt.

Here now the words of the witches,
The secrets we hid in the night,
When darkness was our destiny’s pathway
That now we bring forth into the light.

Mysterious water and fire
The earth and wide ranging air,
By hidden quintessence
We know them,
And will and keep silent and dare

The birth and rebirth of nature
The passing of winter and spring
We share with the life universal,
Rejoice in the magickal ring

Four times a year the Great Sabbat
Returns, and the witches are seen
At Lammas and Candlemass
On May eve and Halloween.

When day-time and night-time are equal
When sun is greatest and least,
The four lesser sabbats are summoned, and again gather witches in feast.

Thirteen silver moon in a year
Thirteen is my way(in her version the covens ways)
Thirteen times at esbat we make merry,
For each golden year and a day.

The power was passed down the ages
Each time between woman and man
Each century unto the other
Ere time and the ages began

When drawn is the magickal circle,
By sword or athame of power,
Itscompass between the two worlds lies
In land of the shades and for that hour(this gives the midnight timing more power)

The world has no right then to kno it
And world of beyond will tell naught,
The oldest of gods are invoked there
The great work of magick
Is wrought

For two are the mystical pillars
That stand at the gate of the shrine
And two are the powers of nature
That forms and the forces divine

The dark and the light in succession,
The oppositeseach unto each
Shown forth as a god and a goddess
Of this did our ancentors teach.

By night he’s the wild and the wind’s rider
The horn’d one and lord of the shades
By day he’s the kind of the woodland,
The dweller in green forest glades.

She is youthful or old as she pleases,
She sails the torn cloud in her barque
The bright silver lady of midnight,
The crone who weaves spells in the dark.

The master and mistress of magick
They dwell in the deeps of the mind
Immortal and ever renewing,
With power to free or to bind.

So drink the good wine of the old gods
And dance and make love in their praise
Till Elphame
S fair land shall recievew us
In the peace at the end of our days.

And do what you will be the challenge,
So be it in love that harms none,
For this is the only commandment
By magick of old it be done!

dreams, spells, daily events, ostara

2006-03-20T11:33:00.000-08:00

3/21/06: Solstice, The Witches Blog3/21/06: SolsticeDreams: I am working as a reporter. I am working “around” the clock on this story and am very tired. I am living in the mountains working. It is an A-line house, very small but very beautiful. I am creating a garden there. Daily:1) A charm bracelet-like the one I used to have. A charm bracelet, a magickal object to be spelled, like the old one that I lost. A new piece of jewelry for the change of seasons.2) A strand of pearls, bought off of ebay for a very small fraction of the price. A new piece of jewelry for the change of seasons. All of my old jewelry is gone, and I read somewhere this past week, that jewelry “goes” where it is needed. All of my pieces were spelled. It is interesting to me that many of my pieces are being replaced with something similar or something better like this. I had a strand of pink pearls, very hard to find and one of my favorite pieces of jewelry. This is another strand of pink pearls, a better strand. I will spell them “with the same” spell. And then the charm bracelet described above. Also “lost”, and then “found” again at a VERY cheap price. Maybe what you lose “comes back” to you, or something “better” when the time is right. 3) I am creating a garden here and bought the “beginnings of it”-it is not in the mountains, but…4) Applied for a two jobs, related to the jobs I dreamed about. Then there is the related properity spell. Right after doing that spell, I went unto the internet and there was a response to one of the jobs. This is very consistent with the spell-it is between a three to seven day spell. Everytime I “do it”, then an “opportunity” presents itself. 5) The situation with Tim is very painful to me. He seems to harbor feelings for a woman that he was involved with while we were separated. But that he chose me. Yesterday was a “test” for me to hear this. I am romantic enough to still believe in “true love”-and that is my “saving grace”. I know deep within that if my “true love” is not Tim, then there is someone who will love me in that “true love” fashion. It maybe him-which is why I am with him. But if it is not, and he leaves me “for another”, then I know that there is “someone for me”. Part of “true love” is resolving these “old” feelings for that other woman, that will come in time. I am glad he told me about it, we are truly communicating bit by bit. I could “be jealous” or I could simply reaffirm to myself(which is what I have done) that if I believe in true love, true love will be in my life. This is “my key” to finding peace within this situation. That “deep belief” in true love and there is a true love for everyone when you are ready for it-and like magick itself “allow for it”. Jealousy is “again” a challenge. What you are jealous of, is a key to what you wish for within yourself. 6) Today is the day I officially begin wearing a new perfume. Every “holiday” or change of seasons. To celebrate the wiccan holiday change with every season. I can never make up my mind about perfume. I love so many. I think of changing every other Wiccan holiday, but it ends up that I change every holiday. Eight perfumes a year-some of which I had before. Instead of “four” perfumes a year. Although I do “find myself” paring down and of course, there is the idea-one that I carry that every woman has a perfume that reflects “her”. I can’t seem to “find” that ONE. Another test of course is what are the perfumes, or the perfume that you have boughten and worn three or more bottles of? Today, I am trying one that I have not worn much of. It is interesting to me, I had a dream of it, and then I “found” it for about a third of it’s retail price. There is a store nearby and the “had it”, and I “thought” of buying it on “impulse” and instead didn’t. Then when I went back to the store, it had all “sold out”. After my “dream of it”, it “came back” to the store for the same low price. It is “my first” bottle of this perfume. I have never worn it before now. Usually, I “go back” and have “the same ones” over and over again to “define” the seasons. Philosophy:Got a letter from someone who is reading this and they did not seem to “understand” the connections. The point of this blog, and my witches journal, is that there are “day to day” connections between dreams(another state of consciousness), spells, and day to day life. There is an “overlap”. An “overlap” that is rarely studied or looked at. Part of magick for me is about “tuning” into those other parts of my mind, and “seeing” those interconnections. For example, in my prosperity spell-there is an almost immediate “response” to it with an opportunity of some sort. Then there are the dreams “guiding me” to what is “best for me to do”. And again, there is the spell itself. For me, a symbolic way to communicate with my own mind. The current spell I am working on, the Ray Buckland spell, is very symbolic. How we “naturally” grow, from a small stream into the large ocean. Synchronicity is one “key” to magick and how life “magickally” is interconnected. There are synchronistic patterns to magick, and to the magickal life. Seeing them and “understanding” them is again part of magick. Recording a spell, daily life and dreams, patterns “show up”. Outward event(real events) DO mirror internal events. And again you must “be open” and “allow” yourself to “allow for magick in your life”. If you do not believe in it at all, then there is no magick for you. Wicca celebrates the change of seasons as holidays. Today is the Wiccan Easter, although to me “St. Patricks” so very close is also a “version” of Spring. There are of course 8 holidays, in every year. For me, I take each of these holidays as ones of “personal growth”. I chose to celebrate each one in ways to “see” how I have grown since the “same time last year” and how much close I am to my goals since the last holiday(Feb. 2). The eight high magick days, are times of great reflection for me. I also honor and celebrate the goddess on each of these days in a ritual. Sometimes, many times, I “rededicate” myself. I reflect on “how far I have come” and “what has changed for me”. I generally try to “take the day off”, and spend it in quiet meditation. If there are “nearby” witches around, I will celebrate the day with them. This is also “egg” day, so on this day I will “do something with eggs”. Again, this is “wiccan easter”. For me, “the spring questions” are: 1) What “newness” (what spring) do I wish to bring in my life. 2) Where was I and what has changed in my life since last spring? And relatedly, “What is the pattern or patterns that have appeared in my life since then?” Life, like the sabbats(or holidays themselves) have patterns, the wheel of the year, the pattern of the year. What is the pattern in my life that seems to be happening, both positive patterns to reinforce thru magick and actions and “negative” patterns “to break”? 3) How have my goals changed? 4) What do I like versus “not like” about myself, and wish to change in myself? I will finish my prosperity spell today, and do a “spring” ceremony. Prosperity is not just about money, it is also appreciating what you have and finding happiness and peace about money. And for me, it is about seeking and “finding”. I am “seeking” in my life right now, and this spell is about “finding” for me. Prosperity Spell(from this past week)(from Ray Buckland, Practical Candleburning Rituals):Five candles: One white to represent myself. One purple to represent power. One gold to represent attraction, confidence. One green to represent money. One orange to represent prosperity. On one side of the altar place the white candle in between the purple and gold candle. Place the orange and green candle on the other side. Say to yourself as you light the candles, this candle represents(as stated above) X. After all of the candles are lit, then say:The little spring upon the hillSplashes forth the crystal flow.Down from the height it rushes,Gathering to it as it runs the manyLesser streams that seek release.It grows and grows; a rushingEver-widening stream.On the plains it slows but stillDoes it grow. Sucking in all it Touches;absorbing lesser flows Feed itself.Gaining, gaining, ever spreadingGrowing.At last, at long long last,The sea is reached. That Vast expanse which stretches out and reaches Past the horizonTo enternity.Pausing not at all the rushingRiver wades right in-Absorbed?...or all Aborbing? Possessed…or finally possessing all?Thus did it grow, from Humblest beginning untilIt owned the All.The whole. The One. (Move the green and orange candle to the white candle which represents yourself or someone else). Meditate for 5 to 30 minutes.

reality creation and spells, Jungian pyschology

2006-03-15T12:16:00.000-08:00

3/15/06Dreams:Dreamt that I was back in school. I am taking exams(this is related to what I am currently studying). There is a trouble with Mardi Gras out of New Orleans with some of my friends. (maybe I need to contact some of these people-if I can). Daily:1) I am studying. 2) Bought a “fairy” necklace and did a spell Philosophy:For me, magick is related to Jungian psychology. Magick if you will, "communicates" with your unconcious mind-to make manifest something faster. You are “talking too” the unconscious parts of your mind, by using symbols. Symbols are the connection between the conscious and the unconscious. Our dreams are symbols. Communicating with the iceberg part of yourself. For example, seven is a symbol of “fairy magick”. My 7 necklace can easily become an amulet. Now, when I wear this necklace(or any of my “amulet” jewelry”) I am consciously sending my unconscious self a message thru the symbol of the image. In the past, I wrote a book on my version of magickal philosophy. It is crucially important that you “open” yourself up, and have an intellectual background before you do magick or generally the magick will not work. You must believe or be open enough to “consider” that magick works, before it really works. You must also consider “that you create your own reality”. This statement is(when you consider it) logically true. Think of a situation in your life that you did not create thru your own decisions? This is also metaphysically “true”. And if you believe in the “iceberg” concept of your own mind-then you must take into account “which part of my mind created this”? Fairy magick is interesting because it “can go wrong”. According to Irish mythology “fairies can help or hinder”. You do not wish to anger them. That is why in my spell, I say “fairy love and fairy light” to “call” if you will only the “best of them”. In terms of Jungian psychology, fairies are symbols and we all “retain” within our own minds deep “generational” also called “archetypal” symbols. Spell for fairy amulet:Amulets are best made on the full moon. Sit under the full moon. Light a white candle. “Fairy love and fairy light.Sign of seven, symbol of your might.I will wear this talisman to honor you.To have wonder in myself thru and thru.Also this amulet will aid in magick in love and light.Again, sign of seven, is a symbol of your might.So more it be.

wonder water

2006-03-13T10:48:00.000-08:00

3/13/06I am trapped in a huge Fortune 500 company. I’m Inside the company and I can’t get out. The place is filled in up with spiders like in Arachnophobia. I am investigating something. Someone’s quincera, two girls are competing with each other-one is a princess type and one is another type. Had a dream of a lace top to wear to an interview-but the problem is that it is a lace top, do you wear that to an interview?? Daily events:1) Did a spell and WHILE I was doing the spell, it ends up that someone was looking to hire me-tomorrow I have a meeting.2) Am waiting on a lot of stuff and finding that the waiting is difficult for me. Spells:Began the full moon magick-three days before is OK. Wonder Water:Place a bowel of water under the full moon, where it can reflect the full moon. Leave it there until the full moon. Wonder water can be used in a number of other spells-like the Christian holy water. I have found it to be very good in healing spells. Cast a circle; place the bowel of water under a tree if possible.Say: Magick here my cry. Make this water have the power of thunder. Make the water help to bring wonder. Philosophy:There are many similarities between Christianity and Wicca-for example, holy water or wonder water. It is not only that, there are also similar traditions-Christmas right around the Winter Solstice. Most Wiccans believe that many Christian traditions come from “copying” the old religions. That this was done by missionaries so that people would more easily adopt Christianity into their lives. As I have said before, I was raised as Catholic and have seen so many similarities. We had holy water in our home all the time when I was a child. Now, I have wonder water. Water purifies, cleans-like a beautiful snow making everything ‘new again”.

more on pandora's box, evil???

2006-03-11T11:23:00.000-08:00

3/11/06Dreams:Dreamt that I was in an ER episode-which is weird because I hardly ever watch ER. I was a doctor on there and I was upset because the doctor I was dating didn’t tell me he was rich. And then he did (I think this is an old episode). He talked to me about money (as this doctor) and said, that “it was simply always there”, but there was a responsibility to it. A lot of things were expected of you when you grew up rich. There are always problems with money, no matter how much you have. I dreamt again that I was in my castle. There was something “wrong” there. I am also exploring the castle and I into a door that I have never come across before. I cannot open this door. It is my castle and I cannot open the door. I will somehow have to find the keys. I am a reporter investigating a “story/case”. I am also the mother of the child being investigated. There are two sides to every story. Pandora’s Box is still in the kitchen-but it has moved to the cabinet. Spell: A housecleaning spell (reference Marion Weinstein) because “something is wrong” in the castle, and because of the Pandora’s Box dream. Cast a circle for the whole house, then say:The One PowerWorking for and thru meHereby manifests and createsThe invisible protective shieldOf the goddessAccording to free willNothing and no one can penetrateThis shieldWe are impervious to harmWe are protectedAnd perfectly safeIn all time and spaceSo mote it be. THE CLEAN-vacuum out all negativity, sweep out all negativity. Said to myself, "love, happiness, and abundance for everyone in this space". Daily Events:1) Went hiking nearby-it was beautiful; it was a short hike, because again I still do not feel all that well. 2) It WAS SNOWING HERE-a rare and beautiful event.3) I agreed to a compromise with Tim.4) Communicated with a friend-he had a dream about me, and advice for me; I believe this could be related to the “guidance” spell. He was “quite” the guide. 5) Opened the cabinet this morning and something “fell out” on me-related to the dream of Pandora’s Box? It is the same cabinet. Another reason to “do” the above spell. 6) Having trouble focusing-although am getting my work done. 7) Have been ill physically-oddly enough this seems to have manifested since I did the spell for health (some kind of feedback-I don’t know)? Philosophy: What is evil? I struggle with this, and have many definitions. One is that evil is negativity unbridled-fear, anger, rage. Anger can and does feed on itself like a drug. Once expressed it does not seem to go away, many times it gets stronger. People can become addicted to it, because of the sense of power that it has. Anger FORCES situations to happen. Fear, we “need” out fear to warn of us danger-but we also live with many fears that we do not need that control us rather then “us” controlling them. The unbridled desire for power-power for the sake of power. Might for might(or power for power sake) versus power for right-power utilized for positive end. Evil is the inverse of live-that alone is a linguistic definition. Is evil a construct of our own human mind/s? I have yet to come to a “real” definition. The above ideas are a few of my guidelines. I know enough to know that I do not know much.

pandora's box and flow

2006-03-09T12:04:00.000-08:00

3/9/06
Dreams
Dreamt that I was in a class an English class scheduled to get an A, and instead because of the final-I got a C. I was so upset that I wanted to leave school. It was a problem with “time managemet” on the test. The teacher talks to me and tells me to stay in school.

Also dreamed that I was walking in the woods around “my castle” and I ran into a rattlesnake. I looked at it and it looked at me, and we “both left”.

In my kitchen was STILL Pandora’s box. I thought about burying it in the backyard and realized then that trouble was ‘buried” there-that was not a good solution. I tried to throw it in the trash-but it refused to go. I tried to move it, so that it wouldn’t be “so prevalent”, and it would simply “come back” and sit on the kitchen counter. I would put it in the trash and then it would come back and sit in the same spot on my kitchen counter. I thought about simply leaving my apartment-like the above leaving school, and then realized that I would be “leaving my life behind” and Pandora’s box would win. I don’t know what to do about it.

Spell for guidance.
Light a white candle,
Goddess help me, goddess guide me, goddess tell me true, what it is that I should do.
Light a yellow candle,
Say the rhyme again and bring the two candles together.

Philosophy:
We generally have within us the answers to our problems. The layers within our minds(the iceberg that I wrote about in the introduction) have the solutions. This is why there is the creative “aha” factor. You will walk down a street, and “suddenly realize” you know what to do. That is also the usefulness of talking something out. This is also known as the Eureka factor-essentially “eureka, I have the answer”. This doesn’t mean that you don’t “work” on a problem, instead what it means is that you work very hard on something and then maybe take a long walk, take a nap, take a shower etc. and suddenly when you aren’t focusing(after focusing) on a problem, the solution becomes clear.
The above spell helps to “open” the doors to the unconscious parts of our mind that have the solution. One problem, sometimes the solution is more difficult and more painful then the problem-so we chose to keep the problem rather then “find” the solution.

Daily events:
1) Tim and I had an argument “in the kitchen”, right by the place of Pandora’s box in the dream. We see a situation very differently. I guess we both live in “different worlds”, have radically different perspectives. Maybe everyone does.
2) Worked all day on very creative stuff and found that I didn’t “like it” afterwards. I think that is the test part of the dream that I had. I felt very discouraged like quitting. Many times this happens when I do creative work. I do the work, then I find afterwards I don’t like it. If I wait a week or a month, then go back to it, I will find that it is much better then I remembered. I am a very rough judge on myself and my work sometimes. When you are out to prove something, then many times you find you can’t do it. When you “get lost in something” and do something because you want too, many times therein “lies success”. According to the dream, I should just “stick with it”. That is what discipline is for. Creative work is about finding that part of yourself that lives “in flow”, judging what you are doing while you are doing it, rarely if ever works. Flow-the concept is based on the book “Flow”, that there is a flow to life and for lack of a better way to synthesize it you can “tune into it”, then things work.

soul retrieval

2006-03-07T16:02:00.000-08:00

3/7/06
Dreams:
Dreamt about Pandora’s Box. Every time I have this dream there is some kind of upset and trouble. At least I didn’t open the box, or the box wasn’t opened which means that “trouble” got out of it. I did try to place it on a shelf; however, it stayed there in my immediate environment. I woke up not feeling good.

Daily event:
1) Today people around me seem out of sorts. There is a stress and a tension level in my immediate environment.
2) I am also out of sorts today.
3) Spent a great deal of yesterday connecting with people.

Spells: A spell for soul retrieval.
Light a black candle-for the release of negativity. Take a scissor and a peace of paper. Write down the name of the person, who is troubling you or upsetting you, then circle the name and draw a line between two circles. You are one circle and the person upsetting you (the name circled) is the other circle. Essentially, imagine yourself in a safe, comfortable space. Then imagine a cord connecting you to the person who is troubling you. Imagine yourself confronting them and taking your “soul back”. The anger, the upset, the pain should “go away” to some extent. Although, it may get worse because you are confronting it in yourself. Ask yourself during the “astral” confrontation WHAT this person is there to teach and why they are there. Try to see the situation as a learning situation. When you awaken cut the paper in half, to symbolize cutting the cord between the two of you. Get rid of the paper.

Philosophy:
Every time you get angry or upset with someone, you give them a part of yourself. The above spell is to “get that part back”, so they have significantly less influence over you. The idea is shamanistic, that you “give” pieces of yourself away. You give away a piece of yourself every time you love someone and every time you have strong feelings about someone. Be “taking back” yourself, when you are angry and upset you eliminate some of those negative feelings. The longer you live, the more parts of yourself you give away. If the relationship is overall a good one, then you are also on the receiving end. If the relationship is difficult, painful and not constructive, then “take yourself back”.

faeries

2006-03-06T11:22:00.000-08:00

3/6/06
Dreams: I am at a dance in a beautiful gowne. I dance all night-then I am in my castle and that is where the dance is. In the castle there are beautiful faeries, I am sometimes “dancing with them” (this is related to the spell). I see my tapestry come “alive” again and move in colorful motion-very beautiful. In my library, I am surrounded by books.

Daily:
1) Didn’t get much done yesterday-housecleaning. I was pretty sick all day. I do a spell for prosperity and wellness and I get sick-it is “feedback” again. I hang out all day.

Spell: From Silver Ravenwolf
Need to have drawn fairy star (also called elven star-a seven pointed star), and bowel of water (silver ravenwolf has a lot more stuff in her version then I do).
Call the faery elements. I wore my emerald ring-for prosperity.

Send and imagine all the negative energy that you feel in a bowel of water.

I call they forth from heavenly sky
To answer now my call of nine
From misty vale and under hill.
I turn the spokes of the magick mill!
One! I stand before thy throne
Two! I invoke thy power alone
Three! I hold aloft my magick blade
Four! Ascend. I am the power of night and day
Five! Descend! Element of Witchery-
O gracious goddess, be with me
Six! Enchantment! Belongs to me
From sandy beach to roiling sea!
Seven! Power! The goddess bestows His mystery
Eight! Come now my work be done
Nine! Your essence now and I are one!
So mote it be…

Over the elven star-the seven pointed star that you drew say,” Love, happiness, peace, kindness, and self-control”.

I invoke and call upon thee,
Oh powers of prosperity (I put on the emerald ring)
Gentle gnomes of elven magick
I bid thee to leave this place
And bring back (the list of what you need and want-say it aloud)
To my sacred space
Ensure that I will never fear,
For food or drink or loved ones dear
Go forth and fulfill my humble desire
3, 7, 9 and 21
end ye well what has begun
As I will it, so shall it be done.

Ground circle, pour the “negativity” water down the drain. Leave a bowel of milk out for 72 hours under a favorite plant(maybe my cat will come back?).

Philosophy:
Elves, fairies and gnomes are part of Irish magick. I have a deep affinity for Irish magick and indeed everything Irish. Celtic magick is also many times catholic magick-but there is a profound belief in “the other world” and “in other beings”. Sidhe is what they are called in Ireland. After any faery spell leave an offering of some sort. Many times, I will leave a muffin or milk (or a muffin and milk). It is believed by some that faeries control time. I have only had good experiences personally with faery’s-and have seen them “many times” in my meditations or in my dreams (as in the above dream), I was dancing with them. However, they have been “cruel to be kind” to me- to teach some kind of lesson. As well, according to much folklore they can be very nasty creatures. There is also the belief that they live “in between”-so the best time to contact them is in “in between times”, sunset, sunrise and midnight. There is also the belief that a doorway is “in between” so that is a good place to meditate about a faery if that is your wish. Sir Arthur Conan Doyle (the writer of Sherlock Holmes) believed in them, and there is the correlating movie and book on that. The Wiccan ‘other world” is also “in between”. For me, this correlates to the “in between” state of mind between waking and dreaming. Or another state of mind called “lucid dreaming”-which many of my own personal dreams are.

the cat on the porch, the white rose bushes

2006-03-04T13:47:00.000-08:00

Dreams: I dreadmt that I was back in New York, but this time I was Carrie from Sex in the City. I was a successful writer alone in New York. I was very sad and searching for love. I am looking for a home-I guess that is another way of looking for love. Love is home.

Daily:
1) I cast a protection spell for the new house, and a black cat I have never seen appeared on my back porch-he/she is sleeping there. The cat also seems to like my white rose bush. 2) Relatedly, found this morning some “white magic” white rose bushes. I have been looking for the “right” bushes to start on my porch. White roses are a symbol for “true love” and for magick(spirituality). Wonder if that is related to my dream about love-kind of a stretch to see that as a connection.
3) Got a new database and am starting to utilize it.
4) Beauty spell seems to be working. Tried a new lotion and now the small lines on my skin seem to be disappearing-or at least getting better. Beauty within first and then beauty without.
5) Last night at local mall bought a new summer top. Also related to beauty. Found something absolutely perfect that suits me.

Philosophy:
When an animal appears in your life, it is also a symbol for you. A symbol and a message. The symbol and message depend on the animal. This is from shamanism.

Voodoo spell for protection:
Light a candle for seven days ending on the full moon and place Morton salt by it. The salt is not to be used for anything but magick. Afterwards, place the salt at the four corners of the house saying:
By this salt
Bring love and light
In this house.

symbols

2006-03-03T11:13:00.000-08:00

3/3/06
Dreams:
I am in my castle-the magick castle and I am wearing my long emerald green (tourmaline) green dress. I am also wearing my old tourmaline ring-the one that I no longer have. I feel very peaceful. I go into the spinning room and work on spinning and then I go into some kind of magick room, a place of magick books, with magick supplies etc. I feel very peaceful here. I have everything that I would want or wish for. The books are on a large variety of subjects and the room is round. There is a light coming from a stained glass window. Magick brings peace that is one main reason why I do it. I think the peacefulness of the dream where “beauty” comes from within (part of the spell I did) offset some of jealousy and helped to create such a peaceful dream. I feel deeply whole. I am at “one” within myself. There is no jealousy here.

Daily corresponding events:
!) I am feeling very pressured by having to write this everyday-that is my discipline. The dream was very peaceful; it is how I feel generally after I write.
2) Worked most of yesterday-got a lot done and felt also like I did in the dream very peaceful.
3) Did a love spell/”beauty within spell and Tim and I stopped arguing.

Spell: Modification of the March love bath spell by Sirona Knight
Used White Shoulders bath lotion instead of the lavender and rose recommended. White Shoulders (like in my book has a lot of tuberose which is good for love) (the spell is a love spell but for me it is also about beauty within- again which eliminates jealousy because jealousy is the “ugly green eyed monster”. There is no peace with jealousy. )

White Shoulders filled with romance and love
Share your natural beauty with me today
May the Goddess bless me with love and beauty
Beauty bright within, shining bright without
Now and forevermore, blessed be.

Philosophy: I think of perfumes as potions (and indeed wrote a book on which ones are good for what). I love to collect different perfumes, and White Shoulders is one of my top 10 favorites. For me feeling beautiful is also about being peaceful (beauty within). I use Sirona Knight’s Wiccan Spell a Day book with my own personal modifications as a base. But I generally utilize other spell books and write at least one of my own a few times a week. I also utilize what I have on hand-and I have a large bottle of “White Shoulders” on hand. Magick once a day is part of my discipline. Magick is truly a discipline as are many things. Something that you need to do on a daily basis if you wish to truly learn it. Magick for me is about “becoming more”, and growing-it creates problems (the “bounce” back), but it also solves problems. The castle in the dream is a place I have created thru many meditations. One part of Wicca is to meditate daily-not only a spell a day also a meditation a day. The castle is my “internal” home. It is filled with many rooms; each room is detailed and has many objects in it. Interestingly enough, sometimes I will “find” objects that “match” the meditation/dream objects in my castle-if I can I will buy them and place them in my home. I studied theatre for a while many moons ago and found that when you create a set, everything on the set is a symbol for the character placed in the set. I have learned to think of my home that way-an object is useful for X thing, but it is also a symbol of something else. For example, Tim loves the mountains and woods (his element is earth), and we have dark brown couches which seem to soothe him. They are couches but to me they are also the elements of earth in our home. One thing about magick is learning to live and think on different levels. The couches are couches, but again for me on a different level they are symbols for the earth and mountains because of the deep color. Internal objects-dream symbols and external objects are also symbols. Learning to interpret and understand symbols is “key” to Wicca for me. One definition of magick that I once learned is that “magick is the ability to change consciousness at will”. I think part of changing consciousness is the ability to see things symbolically.

my personal challenge/s

2006-03-02T10:50:00.000-08:00

Dreams:
All night long I dreamt of Addie. To some extent I relived the experiences of the past with her. I find that I have no compassion for her-I have no positive feelings for her, this rather frightens me. As a rule, I can find a part of myself that can try and understand where the other person is coming from. But right now, there is no part of me that can understand, truly understand her except intellectually. I saw the goddess’s who “overshadow” her-she is Hera and Diana. I do not understand Hera –it is hard to see that in my psyche. The message to me is to try and write this out so I can understand her. Which is what I am doing.

Spell for a friend:
With a sapphire ring (reference Silver Ravenwolf again)-I used an old sapphire ring because sapphires are “my stone”.
Moon shine for me
Gem do your work
Find a kindred friend who is not a jerk
No one is perfect this I know
Help us both to learn and grow
With love, joy and dignity
As I will, so mote it be.

Daily Corresponding event:
1) Read an article on happiness, happiness includes forgiveness and in my dream I can’t seem to forgive. I did a spell for success. Apparently, you need to be happy BEFORE you can succeed. And I am having trouble with forgiveness which is part of happiness. I think happiness has to do with faith.
2) Tim and I are arguing, an unresolved related issue.
3) Am new in towne AGAIN, so I decided to try a spell for a kindred friend (above spell).
4) One thing I am “jealous” of Addie. To me, jealousy is a challenge in regards to what you wish for yourself. For example, if you are jealous of someone’s beauty, then you need to look at why you don’t feel beautiful and change what needs to be changed. Jealousy is a challenge and could be why I can’t forgive her or understand her.
5) Addie is a “fighter”(the Diana in her psyche), my way of dealing with someone I do not like in my reality is to simply “cut them out” as much as possible-rid them from my life. Indeed, she “gets off” on fighting people. Addie is also very Machiavellian-she will do whatever it takes, no matter what the cost. I can fight, “the good fight”, but my way is very different. Addie is “not going away”. She is very present force in my life. The first thing I must do in my “fight”, is to rid her from my life in my mind’s eye. Forgive her, try to understand her, get over my jealousy, lessen her hold on me. Jealousy, anger etc give the other person too much power over me. The less emotion I feel about her, the less her power and the smarter my decisions and reactions in regards to her.

Philosophy:
One thing about spells is that they many times “counter attack”. Whatever is happening in your life that is preventing you from having what you cast the spell for, “comes out to play with you”. Suddenly, my trouble with forgiveness is in my dreams-all night long. And an unresolved issue with my significant other as well. Forgiveness is for you and not the other person. If you forgive them, then they lessen their power on your life. So, if you cast a spell for happiness, you are going to find out what is making you “unhappy”, and face that down within your own psyche. Forgiving does not mean that you associate with the person again-although it can. Forgiving means that your anger or rage is gone towards them.

Philosophy on “overshadowing”:
Based on the book, “Goddess’s in Every Woman” by Jean Bolen, the idea is that we are essentially X amount of women in our society. This idea is based upon the Jungian idea of archetypes. For example, a woman who has a lot of Aphrodite in her, will date a lot of men, she is the personification of love and sex. Hera, the wife-but a betrayed wife, is a “woman scorned”. Every God and Goddess has both “good sides” and “challenges” to overcome. Hera is the woman scorned challenge, the wife of Zues-he cheats on her all the time. There are Greek, Roman, Irish etc. god and goddess archetypes, most women (and men) are two. These are called pantheons. Our sense of fashion is part of that. What we were is reflective of which “goddess” we chose. For me this is one “crucial” part of a being wiccan, the different gods and goddess’s that overshadow us. Wicca takes this into account, and most other religions do not. It is a useful way to try and understand someone and where they are coming from.

synchronicity

2006-03-01T10:54:00.000-08:00

Dreams:
I was back in LA. I was networking and connecting. I saw a web, and thru the web there are vast interconnections, and I was in the web making those connections. Dreamt that I was in my script I am writing. Defined what I need to write today.

Philosophy:
Carl Jung has a book “synchronicity”. The book describes the process of how symbolism and synchronicity works. Basically one thing I remember from the book is that I woman who is in deep pain is describing a dream about a raven-raven mean magick (they are magickal creatures from Arthurian myth) and suddenly a raven appears on the windowsill as she is describing the dream. She has a huge break-thru in healing. That is synchronicity-the raven was “her angel” comes to help her. To me, the study of symbolism and synchronicity is crucially important to magick. Synchronicity is part of HOW magick works. We simply “ignore” this. We do not see the “magick” all around us or the magick within us. It is like the movie, “The Color Purple”, the color purple blooms all around us in flowers and we ignore it. Magick is like that, we are in my opinion guided each and everyday and we simply ignore the messages. Life is filled with synchronistic moments, especially if you are in tune with your dreams. The tarot is filled with symbolism, as are many other magickal tools. Learning to decode these symbols is part of magick. Learning to “tune in” to yourself and “tune in” to the small seeming minutiae of life is also about magick. Finally, there is wonder. We always knew how to tune in but we “lost it” when we grew up. We lost the wonder of a baby who can look at a flower for many hours, utterly enchanted. Tuning in is about finding wonder again-tuning in is also about “living in the moment”.

Daily:
1) Tim (my significant other) just handed to me a group of web-sites to “interconnect” my site with other people on the web. Talk about synchronicity.

Spells:
Modification from Silver Ravenwolf-she used Lavender (I used Sleepytime tea)
“From my higher self I bid thee come from the deep rising river of my dreams-great winged thoughts of inspiration, knowledge, growth and learning. I welcome with the joy the symbols, vivid colors brought forth, up thru the depths of my mind and I will remember only those dreams that are significant. I will decode them with little difficulty upon waking by using the keyword (my keyword). So mote it be. “Drink the tea before going to bed.

my first post-a little philosophy

2006-02-27T13:40:00.000-08:00

The Witches Blog, By Samantha Riordan…I have been a witch for 25 years. For me, Wicca or Witchcraft or even magick is about learning to change consciousness at will. Learning about and exploring the different layers of the mind. The mind is like an iceberg and we most people, indeed most of us live only on the very top levels. Never exploring or going into the deeper levels. I have also kept a journal for 25 years as part of my magickal training. A journal of magick and a journal of my dreams. In my opinion daily life and dreams are correlated. Many times something will happen in my dreams that will “show up” in someway in my daily life. To me, learning to decode dreams and symbology is key to Wicca. Spells use symbology to “connect” or speak too the different levels of our mind. I firmly believe that we create our reality, but WHICH part of us creates it, and why? I have also come to believe that it is within the deeper levels of our minds that the “supernatural” lies. On a traditionally logical level, when we change how we see something, when our perception of an event or a group of events change, our lives do change. We use only 5 percent of our brains in our lifetimes. Magick is about opening up to those other parts of our minds. We do not explore the uncharted territories of the mind. Magick is a map to those largely uncharted terroritories.
Lucid dreaming for me is a key technique to magick. I find that many nights, my dreams provide “little lessons” or even “little stories” for me. I cast one spell a day, and I journal everyday. The following is a combination of part of my lucid dreams, part of my daily life journal, and sometimes the correlating spells that I use. It is part of my personal journal to understand the deeper parts of myself in practicing the religion of Wicca.